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faith / Mental health

On accepting my un-healing.

By On 4th July 2017

I was raised on testimonies of healing. I was taught about the miraculous, Jesus healing the blind man, that meeting in South America when someone was raised from the dead, the missions in Africa where people had seen limbs re-grow and hearing restored. I thought healing was the only answer to the question of illness, because illness was always a sign…

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On transitions and finding the courage to move forward.

By On 6th June 2017

What follows are some thoughts on moving from one place to another. We are living in Anglesey at the moment (for a three month sabbatical) but these words are not about a literal move, but a metaphorical one. The past few years I have been on the border, crossing from one way of life to another. My blog is subtitled ‘Learning How To…

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On realising I am good.

By On 30th May 2017

I recently wrote a post about freedom. This post was a starting point for re-articulating my faith. If you haven’t read it you might want to check it out before reading this. The ideas contained in these posts are fresh, and like wet paint have the potential to make a mess. I am stumbling towards truth, inarticulately. I am starting to write about some…

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Ash Wednesday or, What repentance is not.

By On 1st March 2017

Today is Ash Wednesday. In churches all over the country people are gathering to repent of their sins. They are kneeling while the vicar or celebrant draws a cross of ashes on their forehead as they prepare for Lent, and after that, Easter. I like this. A stopping point, a place to be reminded. It is only recently I have understood what…

faith / living well

The feast we chose to forget.

By On 31st December 2016

Last Wednesday, I was in my car when I heard a programme on the radio about the Christian Feast that falls on that day. December 28th is the Feast Day of the Holy Innocents. A rarely celebrated day, this feast remembers the young boys who were slaughtered by Herod as he searched for the messiah. Very festive. Hot on the…

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For anyone who has ever had questions about their faith.

By On 28th November 2016

I struggle to articulate the discoveries I have been making about my faith, in part because what I believe cannot easily be squeezed into language. It cannot be condensed and compressed into words, black and white on the page. I am only ever able to scratch the surface, if I am lucky. Even if I had all the time in the world I would…

faith / Mental health

The wild truth about freedom.

By On 22nd November 2016

With regard to my faith I have spent a lot time writing about what isn’t. Exploding lies. Debunking myths. That sort of thing. I write about this because it is what I have spent a lot of my time doing in my real life. Unravelling thoughts about my beliefs, chucking out systems that have become constraining. I struggled under the weight…

faith / Mental health

On loving Jesus and taking anti-depressants.

By On 21st September 2016

My therapist tells me that she believes it probably won’t be long until there is a test, a blood test or something, that will tell what is chemically happening in your brain. To ascertain that something isn’t right, some chemical or hormone isn’t being released correctly or in the right amount (forgive me – I am no scientist). This would…

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For when you can’t sing in church.

By On 19th September 2016

Yesterday in church we sang together. We sang the words, “you’re never going to let, you’re never going to let me down”. The words caught in my throat and I fell silent. I couldn’t sing the words even though I have found them to be true. He is never going to let me down. I couldn’t sing it even though…