faith

On realising I am good.

By On 30th May 2017

I recently wrote a post about freedom. This post was a starting point for re-articulating my faith. If you haven’t read it you might want to check it out before reading this. The ideas contained in these posts are fresh, and like wet paint have the potential to make a mess. I am stumbling towards truth, inarticulately. I am starting to write about some…

Family

To my daughter, on a day we don’t understand.

By On 23rd May 2017

This isn’t really a new blog post. It started as a letter to those who have subscribed to this blog, who I email most weeks. But after writing it and sending it to them I thought I would share it here too. It has been such a strange day. A day of conflicting emotions. A day where our nation has poured out…

Mental health

The question that undid me.

By On 3rd May 2017

I had my first panic attack at 22. Except I didn’t know that was what it was called, or that it was symptomatic of the fact I was suffering with a mental illness. Mental health was not on my radar. At all. I didn’t think of my brain as being healthy or unhealthy. I didn’t think about it having moving…

living well / Mental health

On bodies and beauty.

By On 18th April 2017

I find it hard to know how to relate to my body. There is a lot of conflicting information thrown at me. It should be strong and sporty because ‘this girl can’. It should be thin and well-kept because why wouldn’t you make the most of what you have got? I shouldn’t give it a second thought because appearances don’t…

Mental health

The problem with anxiety.

By On 13th April 2017

Two weeks ago I opened my notebook and wrote this to you: — “I’ll level with you. I’m feeling anxious. Right now as I write this. I was fine and then all of a sudden I was aware of the tell-tale signs: the increase in temperature, the noise of my heart beating, my stomach bubbling. My anxiety manifests itself as…

Mental health

How to fight the beast called Anxiety.

By On 31st March 2017

Anxiety is a beast and it has no manners. It never waited for me to get dressed or have my breakfast before it pounced. It sat on the end of my bed waiting for me to open my eyes, dictating to me how the day would start. As I lay in bed, adrenalin surged and I was instantly catapulted from peaceful sleep…

Mental health

A short interview with me.

By On 24th March 2017

Today I was interviewed by my friend Ryan Cook. He filmed our conversation for his blog. In our chat we talk depression, anxiety and faith. I say too much, too quickly. As someone who often talks faster than she thinks this was slightly dangerous… Thought I would share it with you too. Love to know your thoughts (I think –…

Mental health

When it is okay to let your friends down.

By On 22nd March 2017

The storm that hit Liverpool a few weeks ago has left its mark. The tree that fell across our road has been removed, but as I walk around my front garden today I see the lawn strewn with debris. In the flower beds small plants have been crushed or entangled in the mess. In life when a storm hits our first priority…

Mental health

When a storm stops you in your tracks.

By On 8th March 2017

Two weeks ago storm Doris battered the UK. Liverpool was hit hard. On our street, opposite our house a two hundred year old beech tree came down. It fell across the road, pulling with it our neighbour’s fence and landing in our drive way at nine o’ clock in the morning. The road was made impassable. It was a miracle no one was…