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honesty

Mental health

The to-don’t list.

By On 29th August 2017

A list for anyone overwhelmed and stressed. A list for those of us who worry too much about what we cannot control. A list for the over-thinkers and the do-gooders. (A list for me). 1. Don’t play it safe. Wear the bright red lippy, the yellow dress, the dungarees you think make you look like an overgrown toddler. Clothes are…

Mental health

To my strong, exhausted friend.

By On 16th August 2017

Dear you, I see you. … You cover it well, but I know how tired you are. Pretending you are coping, painting on a bright smile and saying ‘everything is fine’. Worn out from hiding the effort it is taking you to get through each day. You rarely let your guard down. Occasionally I glimpse, past the work, the relentless…

Family / Mental health

A key to living in the present.

By On 14th June 2017

We have been in Anglesey for about 8 weeks now. It has been fantastic. As I write this I am outside sat at the table under the parasol. If I look up I can see the mountains of Snowdonia in the distance and the patchwork of fields, with the occasional house or farm dotted in between. The swallows that have…

faith

On transitions and finding the courage to move forward.

By On 6th June 2017

What follows are some thoughts on moving from one place to another. We are living in Anglesey at the moment (for a three month sabbatical) but these words are not about a literal move, but a metaphorical one. The past few years I have been on the border, crossing from one way of life to another. My blog is subtitled ‘Learning How To…

faith

On realising I am good.

By On 30th May 2017

I recently wrote a post about freedom. This post was a starting point for re-articulating my faith. If you haven’t read it you might want to check it out before reading this. The ideas contained in these posts are fresh, and like wet paint have the potential to make a mess. I am stumbling towards truth, inarticulately. I am starting to write about some…

Mental health

The question that undid me.

By On 3rd May 2017

I had my first panic attack at 22. Except I didn’t know that was what it was called, or that it was symptomatic of the fact I was suffering with a mental illness. Mental health was not on my radar. At all. I didn’t think of my brain as being healthy or unhealthy. I didn’t think about it having moving…

Mental health

The problem with anxiety.

By On 13th April 2017

Two weeks ago I opened my notebook and wrote this to you: — “I’ll level with you. I’m feeling anxious. Right now as I write this. I was fine and then all of a sudden I was aware of the tell-tale signs: the increase in temperature, the noise of my heart beating, my stomach bubbling. My anxiety manifests itself as…

Mental health

When a storm stops you in your tracks.

By On 8th March 2017

Two weeks ago storm Doris battered the UK. Liverpool was hit hard. On our street, opposite our house a two hundred year old beech tree came down. It fell across the road, pulling with it our neighbour’s fence and landing in our drive way at nine o’ clock in the morning. The road was made impassable. It was a miracle no one was…

faith

Ash Wednesday or, What repentance is not.

By On 1st March 2017

Today is Ash Wednesday. In churches all over the country people are gathering to repent of their sins. They are kneeling while the vicar or celebrant draws a cross of ashes on their forehead as they prepare for Lent, and after that, Easter. I like this. A stopping point, a place to be reminded. It is only recently I have understood what…