Raw, passionate and unflinchingly honest, How Not to Be Good is part self-help, and part Elli’s story about living with, and surviving anxiety.
It’s a story about what she did, who she is now and how she took charge of her life.

How Not to Be Good challenges the myth of ‘having it all’; it questions our desire to be ‘good’ and confronts our expectations.

You will feel her pain and rejoice in her triumphs.

This is her story.

“Elli Johnson offers nothing less than a map of her soul – unsparingly honest and illuminating. A brilliant candle against the dark.”
– Frank Cottrell Boyce

This book is for anyone who has ever found themselves overwhelmed, struggling to cope and feeling guilty about it.

It is for those who want to live a good and worthwhile life but are exhausted by what it seems to entail.

It is for those who keep moving ever faster trying to outrun their anxiety, who cannot find rest or peace no matter how hard they look.

“So much of this book resonated with me. The anxiety spirals and panic attacks I’ve experienced are spelt out with real eloquence. I think anyone who has dealt with anxiety – both directly and via a partner or friend – will get something out of reading this book.”
– Grace Timothy (author of Lost in Motherhood)